Apparently this is what my clip-on ears do, albeit, slightly less exaggerated, when I chew with my ears on.
Looking like a re-blog night tonight, I’m okay with this though because I need a kick in the pants to get back on track. Some emotionally up-heaving things have been happening in the last few weeks and that’s caused me to go back to my old habit of emotional-eating and laying in bed doing nothing but watching movies and being online.
NO MORE SHALL THIS BE THE WAY OF THINGS!
I expect a few bad days, but I will not let them turn into bad weeks anymore. That’s a start anyway.
I will not let my emotions, or my fear of my emotions, turn my hand to food anymore. Instead to numb the pain I’ll paint, or write, or watch silly shows to distract myself. Hell, I might even allow myself to cry every now and then and try not to feel weak and pathetic for doing so, because I’d rather cry my eyes out than be fat, and I don’t care who knows it.
Onto more productive news, I bought a home machine thingy for your thighs, like the ones for your hands that you squeeze, but for your thighs/legs.
I also just received my new diet pills. I’ve heard great things about them so I thought I’d try them out. There’s a lot of talk about the real pills and the fake ones, so I’ll see how it goes and if it’s the real deal I’ll post the info with the website here later.
Also I shall endeavor to post more often, even if I don’t have any/many followers yet, it’s also good for me to do this and keep posting to help me want to exercise, the hardest thing about loosing weight for me is wanting to get up and work out when my bed is so comfortable and inviting, and the internet is so accommodating to people looking for a distraction. This, coupled with a traumatic experience with a recent ex, has lead to me to hermitage, and I’m sick and tired of saying “Sorry, I can’t come out tonight, I’m too busy being fat.”
Also since I’m even more terrified of confrontation now, I think when I loose weight I’ll regain some confidence and again be the bubbly social butterfly I once was.
That’s the theory at least…